<3 lillsss mah grills was hurr. stop drinking my snapple fagface. youre so cute, how cute is this double date finna be right now =) oh wasssup!
2010 what year to get kicked off. so many memories witheld within a month and a day. honestly been the most exciting, contradictive, random, extravagant,etc. start of a year ever. i have gained and lost things already that is vital in my mind. first off starting with my first ticket. not the greatest feeling ever mos def brings your morale down to the maxx. you honestly cant feel shittier than that feeling because one split second could have changed an outcome. and honestly the ticket has been epiphanizing my mind in doing better in everything especially on this scuela of nursing. about this school dillemmaa that was bothering me all year last year finally unraveled where i transfered from Skyline to NCP. honestly i actually thought i wasnt going to enjoy the move but suprisingly it has made me outlook and think about my career pathway and i love where things are going. other than school, work has been a killer where i would have to open from 9-1 then go to school from 3-7 like doode my life hella just dissappears on MWF. but honestly im just focusing on that degree and the promised land. im so determined to not only make myself proud but my madre as well. i really want to just do more with myself because honestly being tired is really not an option if you want to be successful. and then there are the chica’s. mos def not on the bright side. honestly that aspect just really messes my whole psychological mindest up and can throw me into whirlwinds to where i dont know where my head is at. on the real…a woman can really affect a man. other than the flaws that have been inflicted lifes good the bra bras got my good side and foreals not trynna be on that pessimism side of town. live once, live happy. no use for being all butthurt no time to waste gotta live it up with no regrets because honestly a day can never get worse it just gets better. ahhh. that felt like a brick off my back is gone. =)
wowoweee! life is mucho retardo. haha. after this week feeling bittersweet, but still looking to be optimisitc. Many bridges can be torn down, but its meant for newer and bolder bridges to replace them. Work has been a drag, i mean its alright but idk if they even like me as an employee i have been oncall this week but its good i got a shift today and tommorow. damn tho kinna sad idk when this god damn paycheck is coming, and im getting pretty ansy. other than that i feel more confident in modern warfare 2 averaging a good KD ratio which makes me pretty dopely estatic. damn tho i really cant wait till break school is breaking my good morale everyday, pretty much just wanna paper chase and chill not trying to do anything super crazy. =). but all the homies from so cal are coming to the city so thats gonna be fun. the gym is a place i should definitely hang out more over there. trying to get fit before the spring break. yeee! been munchin at wingstop soo much and probably a new edition which is THEBOILINGCRAB. pretty bossy place kinna pricy and far but worth the drive and the appetite. damn im so bored right now im just chillin in the Student Lounge @ Skyline. ahhhh school tho…luckily not all my classes are gonna have extreme ass finals, so trying to just breeeze by these bitch weeks then tapos for a month.
Damn what a busy week that went by last week. I finally got a muthafuccin’ occupation. 2B @ serramonte. what it dooo! on top of that i got something that made me have a sense of rebellion. well that was the good mojo of my week. so much has been growing in this cranium of mine. lots of thoughts and emotions that won’t come through the door. the past few weeks have been pounding me like meat in the grinder i had 2 projects due now i have two papers due inna quick minute. well i mean come to think of it break is JUST around the corner which makes me wanna push it till then. i usually pull in the clutch factor and find a way to get through everything somehow. on the other hand ive been feeling like i been to one sided towards people. like i mean i gotta spread me more. recently i have been so much time to myself a.k.a. MW2. hahaha. aye tho its worth it. but its not even that, like there is school and on the other hand there was PMDS performance @ skyline which also cut into my time. i just wanna kick it more with my friends and fam bam cause i feel like im excluding myself. damn tho now there is a job which is gonna create more time issues, but i do want this to help mi madre out cause of the stupid economy cutting moms paycheck by a RACK. there is also the female issues that are absolutely ridonkculous. SWEAR broham women are just another thing, they just dont know what they want. and i do admit they make men do retarted things that i think we would never do. i think that is what is really buggin lately but im just gonna have to be a nigga about it cause i can’t it let it make me stay on a stalemate where lots of positive things are happening lately. so imma live by a GANGSTA term: “Think like a nigga so you don’t get played like a bitch.” A to the fuccin’ men. Damn tho paper chasin to get my shit ive been wanting for hella long *cough cough* a new car. =). mos def would make me the happiest fella out there. gonna eventually get that 10 prestige on MW2 which is absolutely dope. ohhhh btdubs, got that membership at Planet Fitness trynna get ripped, so juiced for that. gotta get on that protein and healthy hype sooner or later. well lets just say this is an abbreviated vent of whats happenning. TUMBLR’s dope for letting me xpress shit. think imma get on this sthi again.
Just had to. muhahahahahahaha!
Good sacrfices give good gifts =)
babes the f*cking best, the best i ever had! thats all i gotta say. she is the downest girl in the world, never ever will there be another just cause she is that damn special. ohh and btw she stayed up till 2 to watch me on wowowee. hahahaha. damn tho wowowee was soo fun front row and just trying to rep sf and the hunnns. airtime was pretty decent. ohh weeee. damn i learned soo many dance moves btw. that was fun i bet i can giling giling hella good right now just cause. hahahaha. damn tho i gotta wake up at 4am wth. whatever. but i laaabs you bubba thanks for just being you and never being fake to me. always being real and true well im tired and imma take a shower.. and hit the sheets. be back in this in 2 days. going back to laguna to say goodbye and go to the cemetery to say farewells cause a few more days and im back in the bay. ronzo is going to do it big when his return comes. AMEN!
damn the vacation is almost over. well not literally its still gonna be summer vacation when i come back to the the bay. but summer reading for skyline. how ugly. totally not excited but heyy i think i got my legit debit card. whooot! wow corona is going to be happy with all the presents what me and bubbs bought. on the real this has been one of the best vacations ever. i learned so much and had sooo much fun. go close with many relatives and saw the differences between the filipino and american culture. lets just say i have my views now. man tho i just think about damn when i come back im going to be older and i wonder how things are going to be when i get back. but man i love the PI made me have so many realizations about just life and how grateful i should be. especially made me appreciate all the people that i have in my life esp. the honey. haha. damn i have never missed someone soo much. but foreals when i get back im just scared im just going to forget all the things ive learned but i should just let things happen. but fuck college wow. mr.radoc is growing up and im turning 18 next month. legal stats but how free will i be. i feel like my parents treat me like their little baby still but i guess i understand im their only baby boy and its hard to let go. i mean shit sooner or later im going to get married and have my own career. i mean its hella hard for them to just know that i can drive and have a girlfriend now. but i have never been so thankful for my parents. i just realize how much of a lazy fart i am. i really need to get a job and just help my parents out. especially now thta they are getting older. i need to accept my responsibilities. enough of grownup stuff tho. fuck man i miss squad sooo fucking much. haha all our crazy adventures and eat outs. i feel like its just put on hold. i cant wait to start that up again and have more wild and random memories cause thats what lifes about. no need for holding back. and i forgot to mention xavier. i miss him too i’ll be up on that live when i get back cause thats just how i roll. but man lets just say the PINAS was pretty healthy for me esp just the space i got. i had so much time to think about life and what i need to do and how to act. i was just so foolish how i was just neglecting all the good i had. well thats why there are always second chances. and without mistakes you can never get anywhere. but one thing i know thats true “hope for the best expect the worst!”
heyy baby your probably wondering why im not responding on aim or why its hella laggy. i really dont know cause on tokbox it says that i have been signing in and out so im like wtf. but yeah just wait if you want but if you want to sleep its okay i understand i have to wait 10 mins so yeah. love you muwahhh.
damn haven’t been on this for soo long. so much i refused to talk about. well lots of things have been going on lately. just like how i finally got my own car and how i drive around sooo much. im like graduating in a week and thats pretty exhilerating for me. i just cant wait for the summer. im going to the main lands for a month probably going to relax my ass off. but imma miss all my cats back in the States while im there. fuck prom is today. i actually wasted so much money on this freaking dance. hahaha. ohh well. hopefully everything turns out great cause it is PROM! and i am going with the best girl in this mutha’fucking planet MS.SAV thats whassup. damn forgot to mention xbox 360 had red rings but i recently got it back which is kinna a relief cause honestly i just realized im pretty much lost without it. it is actually some sort of time-killer/stress reliever. damn tho so much going on lately dont know where the roads going to lead but i always say “things get worse before the get better” so lets just see. just trying to push that bad chi outta the way cause its really not good to be negativo. damn tho i cant believe im graduating like i am actually going to college, Skyline college. i always think about all my memories from high school going back to grade school and how people have faded and stayed also met new fellows to guide me along the way. Life is beautiful and deppressing just depends how you portray it. always look at the bright side. no need to be sad…LIFE IS TOO SHORT! live it up dont hold back. if you feel like you need something done then do it stop procrastinating. wow i should just use that when i do homework. LOL. well senioritis has been kicking me in the butt lately. kinda shocked that i actually almost survived high school. time is actually passing by so fast. next thing i know im married and i have kids. haha. wow that will be the day. damn tho having corona is a blessing even tho its beatso. i am grateful that i have her in my life. makes everything so convinient, but i feel like spend way too much money on her. haha. fucking spoiled and i dont even work. ohhh btw im planning to get a job when i come back from the PI, shittt! but i wanna get my ears pierced when i turn 18 but mi madre is being weaksauce about it. im actually waiting for the summer to end tho. so much things that im anticipating. lemme list them haha. MODERN WARFARE 2, college, 2009-2010 season for the 49ers. damn actually i think crabtree might be magical cause he was picked on me and bubbs one year. haha. that was a great ass day. damn tho hella trying to see all my options as it is and not trying to hella commit to something that i dont fully have my heart into. like its not right to be forced into something right so i wanna see before i jump into any conclusions. ahhhh. this feels good expressing myself for the longest time i just realized how happy and grateful i am that im living and just waiting for the next adventure to come. but really money is really an issue that is garbo to much debts to pay after prom. ohh and thats another story. hahaha. damn i need to find kicks my rotation is so ugh. but whatever. damn i just cant wait till i really make my car a little nicer. im trying to buy that new rear-view mirror, new bred seat covers, a deck and maybe some beat in the back, ohh and new winshield wipers. damn i cant wait till bubbs drives we are going to see each other more often and she can be my chauffer for a sec hahaha. pwnd. but yeah she has been great to me but i have been feeling like a shit ass bf lately cause i always sleep on her but xbox is helping with that cause i stay up later cause the boys always waiting for me so we can stomp on hella niggs that get in our way. but shit this blog is getting wayyy to long so imma blog probably after prom hopefully all goes well. ohhh shit btw, we rolling in a party bus WTF!! that is legit the more i think about it. hahahaha.
